i never talk to you be who you want me to my musics way to loud my freinds are all so proud

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today i am so ridickulasly tired... and im probally not gonna go to bed until like 1030 cause i gotta watch my real world.... yes its the shit... dont hate fuckers....

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to many bitches not enough hoes

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fuck you , fuck you, fuck you, your cool, fuck you, im out

saturday ... chillin went to subway got lunch... chronic.... dont know what im doin tonight..... casey is thrying to get me to stop by this thing i dont know..... i got a half a bottle of dickel again.... might sit in my room get drunk.... might see what skank is doin that dude is always down for drinkin.... hmm.... still need a girl..... was supposed to go out to suffolk but they are gonna be out there til late dunday night ... late sunday night im tryin to be knocked out sleepin so we will see.. last night didnt do shit.... schooled richie in some tony hawk........ garbage ass... he still hasnt figured out he cant beat a feign on videogames... man im feignin on this nas cd.... shit is hot..... im just too lazy to burn it so i just borrow it for weeks...

we got a name for the winners of the world well honey i want a name when i lose.....

aight man tonight ive got to thinkin and im tryin to say some things... im not perfect..... im not a great dude .... not amazing .. yall just dont know.... bein me isnt great..... think i want to be a pot head.... think i want to be out drinkin and partying.... naw not really... its fun and all but im tired of it.... some shit needs to change quick cause im tired of the same shit every weekend. . . but i do got a bottle od george dickel im tryin to get down on tomorrow... cause i got shit else to do... word....

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Hello
I've waited here for you
Everlong

Tonight I throw myself in two
Out of the red
Out of her head she sang

Come down and waste away with me
Down with me
Slow, how you wanted it to be
I'm over my head
Out of her head she sang

And I wonder
When I sing along with you
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when

She sang

Breathe out
So I can breathe you in
Hold you in
And now
I know you've always been
Out of your head
Out of my head I sang

And I wonder
When I sing along with you
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when

She Sang

And I wonder
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when



i remember this shit from tonight

Back in 1994 there was no reason that we had wanted to play
But a vision of expression
An ability to reason with the worries in our lives
An ability we'd recognized
How many times, would composition turn into confession?
Building a foundation for our youth to grow into progression
Making our days, free-will reside, we say!
Now you know things ain't right
And the pressure that you're granted from this life
And forever you had wondered what's in store
'Til you stand up and not take it anymore!
Doubted about the things you do
And deviant of your scattered mental institute
No second guessing when it's already past
Denying that it wouldn't last
Here's to the days, here's to the nights
Throughout the years, how many fights?
Here's to the daze that paved the way! We say!
Now you know things ain't right
And the pressure that you're granted from this life
And forever you had wondered what's in store
That's when you stand up and not take it anymore!
Like we'd done before!
The seize of day, turned on into night!
And open wide!

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whatup... played maury last night... fags.... i scored they took that shit away fuckers...... but anyway exams are next week..... im not really stressing any of them... not feelin the journal right now... jsut burned a new cd.... biggie.... brand new.... tom petty.... the shit.....

What's the geekiest part of your music collection? eddie money.... the guy who sings ive got two tickets to paradise...
What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?the last samuri... twice ...
Do you have a completely irrational fear? i dont know what irrational means.. but i dont like heights...
What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moments? i wet myself....
Do you have too many love interests? can i get 1
Do you know anyone famous?i met snoopy once
Do you know how to play poker?2 card or five card draw nigga
What do you carry with you at all times? my penis...
Jewelry you wear 24/7? neckalces
How do you drive? too fast
What do you miss most about being little? la lights.... uh huh i had mines...
Are you happy with your given name? kirk muthafucking johnson suits me well
What was the last song you were listening to? so right by dave
Have you ever been in a school play?no
Do you think you're cute? naw
Do you consider yourself to be a nice person? asshole
Current mood: lonely
What's one thing that you're grateful for today? my slurpee
What is your funniest high school memory? i dont know
What is the last concert you went to?wailers.. i dont go to many
What is the next concert you will go to?i want to see buffet
Do you have any weird preferences? cherry first in my slurpee then coke... not coke then cherry thats jsut weird
What is the one thing you'll never understand about the opposite sex? how it feels to bend over in a thong
Do you have any weird sleeping habits?i took off my hoodie last night... i dont remember... so i strip in my sleep...
Do you know any Disney songs by heart? umm... . .
What is in your wallet/purse? two 5s... ballin.... license..... gamestop..... ss card.... and mad other shit
What is your favorite pair of shoes?reefs
Are you in a fight with someone? my cat...
What was your best/worst birthday experience? best: best birthday was when i was 5 i used to have parties and get mad presents..... worst.... last year i got no cake.... jew bastards...
Last thing you said: mom you need to hop off my balls
Do you have a dark secret? tengo tres juevos
Happiest memory from this year? word
Saddest? vacation
Stupidest thing you did? yes i am known to do dumb things
Hardest thing you had to do? tony hawk underground beaten on sick...... uh huh that shit is hard
Thing youre most glad of? i know 7-11 isnt gonna get rid of slurpees anytime soon... that is word.... thats about it...

do you type really fast? - two fingers from both hands nucka

does it annoy people who are around you (like in the library)? - no

do you/did you like high school? - its easy as hell

how old are you? - 16

do you know anyone who has the same birthday as you? ryan faganaugh

favorite pen color -blue

what word do you constantly misspell when typing? - freind

do you have trees in your yard? - my lungs. . ..

name one comedian that everyone thinks is funny but you absolutely cannot stand - bernie mac

name one director you hate and tell why - i dont even know any directors

do you like tim burton? - isnt that the animator guy

what annoys you more than anything? - hat hair

tell me about the weirdest pair of socks you own? my knicker socks... pimpin

if you woke up tomorrow morning as the opposite sex, what would you do first? - play with myself

did you read fear street books? - no .... goosebumps nigger

how about sweet valley high? - yeah riiiiiiight

babysitter's club? the boxcar children? - yenooooo

goosebumps? - 2nd grade pimpin

favorite show on nickelodeon (can be from the late 80's/early 90's when nick was good) - salute your shorts

did you watch are you afraid of the dark? - yeah

did zeebo the clown scare you? - ha i remember that one

where do you vacation every summer? - nags head, minnesota

do you like the beach? - its aight

do you tan or burn easily? - burn

do you make up your own words and lingo? if so tell me about it - yeah...HERGEN

do you eat lots of tv dinners? - slurpees

favorite hot pocket flavor - pep. pizza

if you could make one celebrity magically disappear, who would it be? - that one guy from that show on hbo

how is life treating you? - magical

do people like you? - no im an asshole

what do you think it is that makes the "popular" people popular? - if i get popular ill let you know

what do you wear the most: jeans, cords, dickies, khakis, skirts, or shorts? -khakis cords.....

are you using a pc or mac? - pc

do you like chunky peanut butter? - mmm hmmm

what amazes you about the opposite sex? -flexibility

are you in love with anyone? - wish i was

do you like anyone? - ye

if so, who - shes fine

why do you like them/why are you in love with them? - cause she puts me in a good mood

favorite cereal - rice chrispy TREATS cereal oh man....

name a movie that makes you cry - ha... the last samuri

what's something you like about the opposite sex, physically, that your friends think is odd? - fuck physicially when they wear glasses... mmmm

is it true that only the good die young? - ill be livin forever

if so, are you going to live forever or die soon? - ill never die

do you live for today? - sometimes

how fast can you run? - slow ass whtie guy

favorite band from the 60's/70's - tom petty, springsteen, zeppelin, pink floyd, eagles, skynard, ac/dc

have any of your friends had kids as teenagers? - some pregnant ones

did they finish high school? - i dont know

favorite 80's television show -cause i was a 90s kid

were you even born in the 80's? - uh huh

what year? - 1987

have you ever taught a little kid a curse word? -jakes first word was god damnit

if so which one was it? - damn

do you think little boys are horrendously ill behaved? -naww

have you ever thrown anything at a moving car? if so, what? - anything

name a villian in a movie that scared you when you were a kid - candyman

have you seen the original friday the thirteenth? -whack

the original chucky? - yers

the original halloween? -scared me

what's your favorite channel? - 613 , soccer channel

what do you say when you stub your toe off of the corner of the coffee table? - fucking shit

what's the highest thing you've ever jumped off of and landed unharmed? - not a fan of heights

does it snow where you live? - i wish

if yes, do you go sled riding? no

have you ever used anything weird, like a frisbee or a trashcan lid, for a sled? - no

how many people do you know who were born in november? - really

what month has the most people you know born in it? -june

do holidays make you festive? - its a fiesta

magazines you subscribe to - maxim, espn, opm

do you read the supermarket tabloids? - no

have you ever smashed somebody's halloween pumpkin? -yes

ever had yours smashed? - try that shit and get hit

do you celebrate christmas? - kwanzaa nigger

if not, do you still watch "how the grinch stole christmas" when it comes on television? - no

do you think the grinch movie starring jim carrey was a waste of money? - never seen it

ever had a hot teacher? - ms hagen oh man

if yes, did you flirt with him/her? - it was 7th grade


how do you treat people you are attracted to? (this is not a stupid question; some people are immature and are mean to those they like) - like they are wonderful

what do you want for your birthday this year? - can i get a moped .....

have you ever egged somebody's house? - yes

has someone ever egged yours? -no

do we all go a little mad sometimes? - lsometimes...

what pisses you off more than anything in the world? - fat girls with tight clothes that think they are fine

do you still go trick or treating? - naw

do you believe in santa claus? -thats my white negro

have you ever worked in a supermarket? - never had a real job


how about a restaurant? - nope

if yes, do you agree with me when i say that those are the two worst establishments to work in? - i dunno

what color is your bedspread? - blue

do your eyes change colors? - hazel

do you believe that we walked on the moon? - yea i was up there

what's your opinion of the u.s. retaliation in afghanistan? -kill em all

do you live by yourself? - yep

have you ever gotten a computer virus? - my computer is a virus

if so, what was it and how did you get rid of it? - its still there... cna i get my soundcard back

describe your junior high/middle school gym teacher -i had a different one every year of my life

how do you react when someone is talking to you --up in your face-- and they have really bad breath? -say damn girl get a tic tac

what was your first date like? - which one

did you go/are you going to the prom? - if i get a date

do you get uneasy when you see a person of a different color than you walking down the same street as you in the middle of the night? - fathar thars a niggar in yar church

if yes, do you think that makes you racist? - hi my name is kirk and im a racist

are you a vegetarian? - nope

how about vegan? - nope

if no to both, do you think you could be? - i like hot wings

have you ever given up a certain type of food? not a fan of squash... so i gave it up for lent

spit out a random song lyric for me. make sure you tell me the name of the song and who sings it! - tell me whatcha thought about when you were gone and so alone the worst is over you can have the best of me... we got older but your still young... Best of me by the starting line

who does the chores around your house? - i take out the trash

name one person who annoys you more than anyone else, and tell why - richie ... just discovered the art of masturbating... on chris couch...

what movie could you watch a million times and never get tired of? - hawaii.... ha...

what movie have you watched a million times, and you still laugh at the jokes? - ferris buellers day off

what movie do you hope you never see again? - legally blonde 2

have you ever hugged a stuffed animal or pillow and pretended that it was your significant other, or someone you had a crush on, and then someone caught you talking to it, and stroking its soft, fuzzy fur, and laughed at you and told the whole school? -yeah uh huh

do you drive? - no but you drive me crazy....

if so, do you like to drive at night or in the day time? - day

has anyone ever called you a bitch? - no im an asshole

has anyone ever called you an asshole? - there we go

are you a bitch/asshole? - yes i am

what's the first thing you do when you get home from school/work? - take a shit

favorite pop tart flavor - cinnamon and brown sugar

do you play any musical instruments? if so, what? - air guitar.. til i dropped it and broke it

tell me about the best school-related activity you ever took part in - soccer

have you ever built a snowman? - yep

did you cry when it melted, or when the kid next door knocked its head off with a shovel? - i knocked their shit over first

what's your religion? - lutheran

do you try to force it on other people? - no


do you knock on people's doors at 7 a.m. on saturdays, trying to give them a pamphlet and tell them about the lord, or ask random people at the mall if they’ve been saved, yet you think that doesn’t count as forcing religion, you son of a bitch? - no but i glue quarters to the malls floor and see if people try and pick them up.... se i am an asshole

what's the best restaurant you've ever eaten at? -hooters... hooters... hooters

have you ever been flipping channels late at night and caught a glimpse of some porn on skinemax? -uh huh 11 o clock on hbo.... you know what im talknig about.....

if so, did you watch it? don't say no, i know you did - hawaii... all i gotta say....

what's the code word or phrase you and your friends use for the word SEX? - fucking

is sex an uncomfortable topic for you? -ive had twisted nuts.... nothing is uncomfortable anymore...

what is the one thing in the world that just looking at it makes you vomit, or come close to it? - fat girls ..... tight clothes

when other people vomit, does it make you sick? -yes

do your clothes match? - maybe

what are you wearing right now? - jeans split hoodie... a volcom beanie

did you ever have those fisher price roller skates that go over top of your shoes? - no

did you have a bike with a banana seat? - no

could you ride it? -no

have you lived in the same house your entire life? - no

what’s the weirdest thing you’ve lived next to? - druggies

who is the ugliest person you’ve ever seen? - the retarded kid that drives through lunch bobbin his head... that guy will never get play....

do you watch talk shows? - pardon the interruption is the shit

do you think miss cleo is full of shit? - yes

if not, have you called her and wasted your money, you idiot? - nno

what are your thoughts on keeping animals in captivity? - at least its not crack

what do you think of all the “superstores” that are popping up everywhere? (super walmart, super k-mart, super target)? -mucho grande

what do you think of pop music? -its popular

tell me something i don’t know - like if we have sex youll want my dough

whatsup.... today in conditioning got iht inthe nose with a ball.... that shit hurts.... for real.... gave me a super headache...... this shit needs to dip..... tomorrow is a b day... and while they are slack... i dont have anything to look forward to in it....dont really have classesd with anyone special..... dont really have anyone special anyways..... man this headache is killin me.... havent had a headache in like 2 years... now this one wont dip... already took like 6 tylenol..... didnt help...... sydeny says i broke it.... but i think it would hurt far worse..... tonight we played the little kids and got worked... .cuase we are all lazy bum ass kids.... but who cares... our coaches take this all personal.... we are just bullshitting.... man i hate when people get around a person and they get their change on... and have to be too cool.... i wish i was that cool...... yep.... right..... i got a lab due in ptech.. but i have a 97.... and i got a free upgrade to a 100 so i dont even care.... im bout to pass out...... and i really need to stop with the drugs.... but i need someone to get me away from it... until that comes around...... i got nothing better to do.... wish i did....

yes i am getting up in 6 hours.... at 5 o clock to make carmel rolls... not because i want to.. but because as a fat kid... i enjoy carmel rolls...